6 Years
After 6 Years everything that was once familiar is now unrecognisable. The Face I see in the mirror.... is a Stranger. All that time while I was planning & deciding for my return I didn't realise how hard it would be to reconnect with Brother, Sister in law, Dad, Mom, Friends and every one that I used to care about... I didn't know how painful it would be to express myself to my closest people. I promised myself that I'd right my wrongs. I’ll and I swear... But to do that I am not that same person that everyone wants me to be and which is why it would become more difficult… Which means thst sometimes to honour their wishes I need to dishonour my memory and myself... I know I care too much and I guess this is the same thing which right now is the most genuine reason to make me feel lonely every day, every time... How ironic is that I remember, I used to talk with people, made them feel safe, secure and happy... I even used to know what they are thinking but now even whil...